Thank You

Elo! Lame tak blog?

Not becoz I'm lazy, but my internet's uzur for the past week. Only yesterday dah kembali normal.

So many things to share, so many stories to tell, so many feelings to express.

She's right. Its not good to bottle up your feelings because the ending can be hazardous. It's good to share or open up all the difficulties, happiness, and experiences you had in life, be it to your family, your relatives, your friends or anyone you're confortable with. It strucked me to think about my life when Agnotti once asked me *Do you have anyone you can talk to? ...*

Of coz I answered yes. But the truth is, do I? Then I went on telling her that I can talk to or express myself to alot of people. Why is this so? Its because I'm blessed with so many good friends in life, friends that have made alot of impact in my life one way or another. And I thank God for that.

But why can't I talk about my problems to people, the way they talked to me? Is it because I'm not an expressive person? Or I'm very secretive? Or because of my communications with my family that led me to this? I don't have this answer. I'm lost.

That's why I appreciate it alot when people tell/share me about their experience, their hardships, their happiness, or alomost anything about their lives. It means alot to me. Not because I have new things to listen to, but the thought of telling me about your problems is what moved me. Thank you Sulinah for telling me about your 3 yrs 3 mths thingy. Thank you Ernie for telling me about your family, relationships. Thank you Sin Yee for telling me something that you don't want anyone else to know. Thank you Hafiza for sharing me the times you had with ur bf. Thank you Sameer for always being there for me. This could go on forever ...

Especially the little things that my frens did. You may think like what the hell, bende kecik je pon ko leh ingat. What people consider small may mean a big thing to others. I still rmb the first day of the term where Nadhirah ajak me for lunch (not with me alone duh). Thank u for that. And thank you for that time you put a post in ur blog for me to wish my birthday.

Thank you my frens for msn-ning with me. Its a small thing, but I appreciate it alot. Thanks Liyana for asking me where have I been. Thanks Hafiza for all the laughter you gave me during our conversation.

Thank you people for smiling at me when you look at me. Thank you for laughing with me.

Lastly, thank you Kak Ruzanna for constantly worrying about me and helping me out. This is the real blessing of winning Projek Cerpen, which is to meet you. You had made such a huge impact in my life that I feel as if I's a totally different person now. Thank you for believing in me and for always being there for me. I can safely say that you are the best person I ever met in my whole life.

To kak ruzanna, when are we continuing with *Kiblatku*? Lets not just stop here.

How I wish I could meet each and everyone of my frens personally to tell them how much they mean to me in my life and to thank them for what they have done to me. A thank you is not enough, but the least I could do is to sedekahkan mereka dengan secebis doa.

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Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, Alhamdulilah atas segala-galanya yang Engkau telah berikan kepadaku. Alhamdulilah di atas segala pahit dan manis yang telah aku alami. Alhamdulilah, kerana Engkau telah memperkenalkan aku kepada teman-teman ku itu, dan sesungguhnya setiap teman ku adalah istimewa bagiku. Alhamdulilah. Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, Engkau ampunilah segala dosa-dosa mereka, sebagaimana Engkau telah mengampunkan dosa-dosaku di waktu aku menunaikan fardhu Haji. Engkau lindungilah mereka daripada azab api nerekaMu dah masukkanlah mereka ke dalam syurgaMu itu. Engkau kuatkanlah iman mereka di bulan Ramadhan ini, agar mereka dapat tempuhi segala ujian-ujianMu dengan senang, agar mereka dapat bersabar di dalam setiap ujianMu itu, agar mereka tidak terlalu terjerumus dalam dunia hiburan, agar mereka dapat beribadah/beramal dengan lebih banyak dan lebih iklhas, dan agar mereka dapat menjalani bulan Ramadhan ini dengan senang. Pada yang sakit, Engkau sembuhkanlah, pada yang berada di dalam kesulitan hidup, Engkau senangkanlah. Ya Allah Ya Tuhan, berikanlah mereka peluang untuk menemui malam yang penuh bermakna iaitu malam Lailatul Qadar, seseungguhnya malam itu hanya datang sekali dalam setahun. Ya allah Ya Tuhanku, akhir sekali, Engkau berikanlah Ramadhan ini, ramadhan yang paling bermakna dalam hidup mereka, agar mereka dapat keberkatan dan keredhaanMu Ya Allah. Amin, Amin ya Rabbal A'lamin ...