Sleepless

I lay awake sometimes
To comprehend my life
If all my actions I’ve done today
Have hurt you in any way

Afraid to close my eyes
Scared to see the night past
To prepare myself for tomorrow
And to see you there again

Chorus:
And here I am in this night
Trying to make things right for my own, and you
Keep telling me how much I’ve grown and I’ve improved
But still I wonder what went wrong, inside
Because I know
I’ve never been good to you
So I don’t deserve you
So please let go,
let go of me...

Still sleepless in this cold night
Still deep in thoughts about you
The one who always held me tight
The one who wants me shine

And now I can’t seem to forget you
Even if I forced myself to
Coz I’ve masked myself around you
And now I can’t seem to face the truth

Insyirah

So long I neva blog hor.

Ok so this is just some conversation between me and my family and INSYIRAHHHH....

When I came back home 2 days ago, I saw my mom ransacking the store. Then I immediately asked

Me: Baby mane?
Mom: Baby dah takde!
Me: Abeh ma carik kat store?
Mom: Ah Ah...(then she added after a pause) Kakak kau dah bawak balek lah

This happened juz now when my mom is playing with INSYIRAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Mom: Sape dokong syirah?
Me: (Backup) Sape dokong Syirah?
Mom: Sape dokong Syirah?
Me: (Backup) Sape dokong Syirah?
Mom: Sheila Majid eh...
Me: Sheila Majid?????

This happened yesterday when the baby suddenly cried...

Me: (Telling to my mom) Die nangis. Die nak susu lah.
Dad: Asal?
Mom: (telling me dad) Syirah bilang anak awak die nak susu.

Salam Lebaran 2008

Saturday night was a blast with Ziana Zain as one of the performers for Salam Lebaran which was held in Fajar which is near Bukit Panjang. Now come let me story2 ok.

The show was supposed to start at 7.15pm. alamak my bro want to use the com.bye

Levanyah Appedeme Losenage

Levanyah Appedeme Losenage

I think this is a very nice name I created. Thinking of naming my future child this. While people called Nur Insyirah, Syriah, they can just called my future child nyah.

Zaki

No this is not about him, but rather, my conversation with him.

Me: Yey! I wrote an essay without any use of punctuations
Bro: I wouldn't want to read it
Me: I didn't ask you to
Me (again): The amazing thing is, it fits perfectly!
Bro: I'm sure there are a lot of errors in the microsoft word
Me: No the document is super clean

Kisah Raja Yang Zalim

This is an EXTREMELY touching story. Please, my dear fellow muslims, read it till the end. This might answer some qns as to why bad things happen to good people and good things happen to bad people.

Pada satu zaman ada seorang raja yang amat zalim. Hampir setiap orang pernah merasakan kezalimannya itu. Pada suatu ketika, raja zalim ini tertimpa penyakit yang sangat berat. Maka seluruh tabib yang ada pada kerajaan itu dikumpulkan. Di bawah ancaman pedang, mereka disuruh untuk menyembuhkannya. Namun sayangnya tidak ada satu tabib pun yang mampu menyembuhkannya. Hingga akhirnya ada seorang tabib yang mengatakan bahawa penyakit sang raja itu hanya dapat disembuhkan dengan memakan sejenis ikan tertentu, yang sayangnya saat ini bukanlah musimnya ikan itu muncul ke permukaan.

Betapa gembiranya raja mendengar khabar ini. Meskipun raja menyedari bahwa saat ini bukanlah musim ikan itu muncul ke permukaan namun disuruhnya juga semua orang untuk mencari ikan itu. Aneh bin ajaib� walaupun belum musimnya, ternyata ikan itu sangatlah mudah ditemukan. Sehingga akhirnya sembuhlah raja itu dari penyakitnya.

Di lain waktu dan tempat, ada seorang raja yang amat terkenal kebijaksanaannya. Ia sangat di cintai oleh rakyatnya. Pada suatu ketika raja yang bijaksana itu jatuh sakit. Ternyata kesimpulan para tabib sama, iaitu ubatnya adalah sejenis ikan tertentu yang saat ini sangat banyak terdapat di permukaan laut. Kerana itu mereka sangat optimis rajanya akan segera pulih kembali. Tapi apa yang terjadi? Ikan-ikan yang seharusnya banyak dijumpai di permukaan laut itu, tidak ada satu pun yang nampak. Walaupun pihak kerajaan telah mengirimkan para ahli selamnya, tetap saja ikan itu tak berhasil diketemukan. Sehingga akhirnya raja yang bijaksana itu pun mangkat.

Dikisahkan para malaikat pun kebingungan dengan kejadian itu. Akhirnya mereka mengadap Tuhan dan bertanya, 揧a Tuhan kami, apa sebabnya Engkau mengirim ikan-ikan itu ke permukaan sehingga raja yang zalim itu selamat, sementara pada waktu raja yang bijaksana itu sakit, Engkau menyembunyikan ikan-ikan itu ke dasar laut sehingga akhirnya raja yang baik itu meninggal?�

Tuhan pun berfirman, 揥ahai para malaikat-Ku, sesungguhnya raja yang zalim itu pernah berbuat suatu kebaikan. Kerana itu Aku balas kebaikannya itu, sehingga pada waktu dia datang mengadap-Ku, tidak ada lagi kebaikan sedikitpun yang dibawanya. Dan Aku akan tempatkan ia pada neraka yang paling bawah! Sementara raja yang baik itu pernah berbuat salah kepada-Ku, kerana itu Aku hukum dia dengan menyembunyikan ikan-ikan itu, sehingga nanti dia akan datang mengadap-Ku dengan seluruh kebaikannya tanpa ada sedikit pun dosa padanya, kerana hukuman dosanya telah Ku tunaikan seluruhnya di dunia!

Renungan Bersama Self-proclaimed Ustaz Dauzz

I told Kak Ruzanna about S's father's (tau2 je sape S tu) condition and this is what she replied. I accidentally deleted the first 2 pages becoz there are 10 pages.

Its a test for her father to go through this situation. And now Allah is putting her to a test whether will she as a filial daughter yang soleha to do the solat for his sake in a life crisis like this and be for him as a child? Thats why learning is an ibadah let alone practise it. Especially maybe Allah is testing both father and daughter will they remember Him if He don't put such test?

Remember when you sis is in pain? The most I did is doa for her with the intention of calming her down and mengaji. And Alhamdulilah you were the one who said that just right after you finish mengaji, she delivered while I was still ngaji and almost done. That shows Allah is there when you are your sis are put to a test. As a friend, I just find ways to help, support and doa the best and safe delivery for your sis and your niece. Mungkin Allah makbulkan our doa for that day especially for you because your are the next of kin and I am just an outsider. Simply helping you, nothing more. You get what I mean?

Bloggablezz (Edited)

These are some of my conversations with my dear brother (who's getting married next year,) yesterday.

Bro: Where's mama?
Handsome me: Went to rumah abang Zul (my cousin)
Bro: With papa?
Sexy me: Yezz
Bro: For raya?
Cute me: No deepavali

Around an hour later

Bro: Are u sleeping in my room?
Charming me: Huh? (buat2 tak dgr for no reason)
Bro: Are u sleeping in my room?
Seductive me: No
Bro: Why not?
Me: Because I dont like you
Bro: Ape je.

This happened juz now

Me: Can u go and bath?
Bro: If I bath after that Im gonna use the computer
Me: Then can u dont bath?

A random moral for today - Merendah diri

Out of Control

Hmmm ...

Its getting out of control lately.

And I don't like it.

In fact, I hate it.

Pleasa tell me a solution for this.

Salawati

Twelve-year-old Singaporean-Malay girl Salawati recently witnessed the death of her older brother. In the aftermath of his death, a group of loutish Indian couriers and a troubled Chinese family become possible suspects in the crime as the boys death raises questions of faith and forgiveness in this touching drama.

Salawati is one of the few Malay movies that is purely Singapore production. And because of that, I went to watch it in the cinemas (just now) with low expectation. I would say extremely low expectation. Now you readers might think that I would say that this movie is excellent because of the typical phrase of *low expectation turned out to be good*, *high expectation turned out to be dissappointing*. But, if you asked me to rate Salawati in a scale of 10, I would say...

ZERO! Thats right! You saw it clearly! ZERO! KOSONG! NONE! TELUR!

Seriously, it dont even deserve a 1 out of 10. The storyline is crappy, script is Astaughfirullahalazim, camera movement wise is boring, the whole outlook of it looks cheap, editing is no good even at first few minutes of the movie, acting is average, hmmm what else can I say... Ah the only good thing is the music, which is okay.

The best thing is, the cinema is crowded! (which puzzled me). I mean, how can anyone have the intention to watch this movie? Yez it is very crowded. It has a total of 4 people (including me and me fren). Thats very crowded.

Lets talk more about the movie shall we. The pacing is extremely slow. You will go *can i fast forward the movie? when is it goin to finish? Cepatlah!!*. The script, on the other hand, is something that most of us already know about. Of coz there are afew good lines (2-3 to be exact). It discuss about life and death, but in a very vague way. Nothing to ponder about, nothing to make u think. And there is no good shots at all! ALl the shots are BELOW average. And the camera has a bad habit of staying at an angle for a couple of minutes.

But of course if you look at the trailer below you will find it interesting. It IS a trailer after all.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H724WsDVjzQ

I think thats about it.

3 Sentences

Skool's in today. Didn't talk much. Had mood swings. Bye

Tagged yet again

YEY!! By you know who. Keep the taggies comin' people.

1. Tell us how you feel about the person who tags you: Hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe
2. Why do you think that person tags you?: Coz I'm the only one who will take the survey.
3. Who is the person who tags you, to you?: My pren!
4. What's her favourite words?: Kandai ah!!!
5. If you have a chance to be with her, will you be with her?: Hehehehehehehehehehehehehehe
6. What's the person's favourite song?: Dingin!! hahah no lah I tink any song from peterpan.
7. Will you dump her for another frend?: Yez....Of coz NO!!!!
8. DO you think you can live without her? Why?: Heheheheheheheehehehe ...Why? Heheheheheheheheheheheehe
9. Who is her bestfren?: DEWI JELINA AYU! haha

Now tag 5 people:
Sarah Palin
Obama
Mahatir
Noorkumalasari
Siti Tanjung Perak

Sekian

Misteri Solat

Seorang pakar Neurologi memberitahu bahawa semasa beliau melakukan kajian urat saraf, terdapat beberapa urat saraf di dalam otak manusia yang tidak dimasuki oleh darah. Padahal setiap inci otak manusia memerlukan darah yang cukup untuk berfungsi secara normal.

Setelah membuat kajian yang memakan masa, akhirnya beliau mendapati bahawa darah tidak akan memasuki urat saraf di dalam otak manusia melainkan pada ketika seseorang itu sedang sujud semasa mengerjakan Solat!!!
Urat tersebut memerlukan darah hanya untuk beberapa sukatan yang tertentu sahaja. Ini bermaksud bahawa darah hanya akan memasuki urat tersebut mengikut kadar solat waktu yang diwajibkan oleh Islam......Begitulah keagungan ciptaan Allah!!! tidak menunaikan solat, otaknya tidak akan dapat menerima darah yang secukupnya untuk berfungsi secara normal!!!
Oleh yang demikian, kejadian manusia ini sebenarnya adalah untuk menganuti agama Islam 'sepenuhnya' kerana sifat fitrah kejadiannya memang telah dikaitkan oleh Allah dengan agama-Nya yang indah ini.

Andai ku Tahu

Now who don't know of this infamous song by Ungu (If I'm not mistaken).

I think this song has the stupidest lyrics ever.

And for that, I'm hating this song.

Facebook-ing

I can't believe that this day will ever come where i'm actually facebook-ing!

Yesterdae ...

Yesterdae ...

Went out jalan raya with Zianafolks sg! Not all but only 3 of them, so plus me it would be 4. Ok what kind of sentence is that? Our private chaffeur couldnt make it so we had to do away with mrts' and busses. We started of with the infamous Choa Chu Kang (Ernie's headquarters), then proceed to Bishan (Sulinah's headquarters), then to Pasir Ris (sape ah?), and ended of at Changi Airport.

Why Changi Airport you may ask. WHY? Coz we were fetching Ziana Zain who has juz arrived from Malaysia. Now why is she here? Because she was invited to perform at some hotel at Orchard today, which I didn't go.

Now ...you (the readers) might be whoaa and wow-ing right now. But F YOU you have been punk'd!!! *evil laughter*. Now there's no ziana zain yesterday, but yes she is performing right now at orchard road.

So, why do we ended up at Changi Airport?

Because one of the folks had a sudden crave for Poppyes.

That's all folks!

Tagged!

Again by Ernie Sulastri! I LOVED being tagged. So people, please tag me if you have no one else to tag. ANd yes Dewi, finallly some pics at my blog, though only 2. My face mahal u know, ingat senang2 ker nak upload. Hehe

Now since Ernie has disabled cut and paste in her blog, I'll have to typed it PATIENTLY here. I am supposed to answer the questions by the initial of my name, which is F, NOT D.

1. Four letter word: Fuck (This is something you don't see me write everyday)
2. Boy name: Fazli
3. Girl Name: Fazlina
4. Occupation: Fireman
5. Colour: Fuschia (a brilliant shade of pink)
6. Something that you wear: Foxers, or Funderwear
7. Beverage: Fanta (This is not made up, it IS a sort of beverage)
8. Food: Fried Chicked
9. Place: France
10. Something found in the bathroom: Fan?
11. Reason for being late: Fucked someone (Again, something very shocking from me)
12. Something you shout: FUCK YOUUUUU! (Something that I will never say, or try not to say)
13. Font: Hmmmm...
14. Tv Show: Friends
15. Song title: Fatalistik by Fiana Fain

Yey I've done it!

Cukup Tak Cukup

Suria wants your view on Dating, Marriage, and Parenting. The selected ones will be featured on the new discussion show (Cukup Tak Cukup) on 24 October 8.30pm. The deadline is 14 October, which means 4 more days left since I typed this. You may send in your views to cukuptakcukup@suria.sg. For more information, do visit the most happening website suria.sg. But trust me, you won't be finding any more information than this.

I'm sooooooooooo gonna write them an essay. Haha

Picturez

Some random pics I selected from the bunch of pics Sulinah sent to my email, which included alot of explicit ones.






Alah malaslah nak upload....

Back

Back from raya outing with my classmatezz!! Finally I got pictures to upload! But for now, penat ...

Einsheera

I just found out that my sister decided to spell Insyirah as Einsheera. Hmm not bad ah...unik...panggil ein...sorry2..hehe

Nur Insyirah Balqis

Nur Insyirah Balqis telah selamat dilahirkan di dunia ini pada tanggal 6 Oktober 2008, jam 8.43 malam. Semoga dia diberkati dengan ilmu duniawi dan ikhrawi yang seimbang. (betol tak sentence tu?)

YEYYYYYYYYY!! I'm an uncle now!
happieeeeeeee.......!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Went to see the little one yesterday night around 9 plus. CUTE!!!!! And as usual my mother would say she look like this person, that person, my brother, my sister blah3.
heheheheheheheheheheheheehehehehe

Happy

I'm so happy suddenly!!

HAPPY!!!!!!

Try

Is 1st October raya? Hmmmm I doubt so...

But whatever it is, I benefited alot from this year's Ramadhan compared to the previous years, though I did failed on some things, but Alhamdulilah. Thank you for your encouragement. I hope that I will continue even after Ramadhan.

But for my family, hmmmm...I guess I have to try again. Can't wait for school to re-open so I can forget all this.

Aidilfitri

Salam Aidilfitri to all Muslims around the world (who happen to see my blog).
In this ever-meaningful day, I would like to seek forgiveness to everyone that I've done wrong, especially to my dear friend, Sameer.

It looks abit weird in english...hmmm

Mohon maaf atas segala kesilapan yang telah saya lakukan, baik yang saya nyatakan mahupun yang saya sembunyikan.

Tonight

Tonight is just sooooo funny!! kan ernie kan!
hahahahahahhahaha super farnie lah!!
we should do this again sometime

Song?

These are my current favourite songssss...

Jessica Simpson - Where you are
Farawahida - Hilangkan segalanya
Azharina - Elegi Sepi
Rem - Erti kasih
Rossa - Takdir Cinta

Tgh feeling2 forrrrr _________

I failed ...

Aku ingin menjadi imam di dalam setiap solatmu

It's my responsibilty. But I guessed I failed ...

Ketenangan

I don't know how to say this, or at least i don't know how to say it to you, coz I'm not an expressive person too, but let me just write what's in my heart ...

You have made a HUGE impact on my life and I don't think I can ever repay you for that. Thank you so very much and yeah, I feel guilty for not being able to tell you or share with you about my thoughts. Perhaps I don't have anything to say to u, or maybe I can't say it to you. I don't know.

Yez I'm just your ordinary typical dumb and ignorant kid. I do not know what love is, I do not appreciate things, I'm not true and I'm not sincere. But I'm growing and learning to be better, to be modest and a khalifah balance with iman. So give me time ...

I know I did so many wrongs to you. Stop saying that I did nothing wrong becoz I know I did. You don't have to apologize because you have done nothing wrong to me. Sorry to make you cry over the phone. But thank you for always being there for me and showing your care for me. You know, its good to know that someone cares for you, and its even better to know that that person show it to you.

I'm prepared to not meeting you for the rest of my life. And please, forget about me. Your mind deserve to think about someone whos is better, someone who appreciates, and someone who's true and sincere. You have sacrificed and helped me enough, so its time for you to do things that you really want and to concentrate on your life.

I have nothing more to say but to say that you are the best person I ever met in my whole life ...

can i say that i'm bored?

Any good movies to recommend? My type of good is NOT 2 Fast 2 Furious, Harry Potter, Transformers, Dark Knight, Hancock...you know that sort of movies.

Oh and I googled yahoo.

what do you do

What do you do if you know someone who's extremely close to you, doing some things that shouldn't be done?

Where you are

Okay firstly, when I create multiple entries in a day, it means I'm high.

Kemarok ngan lagu Jessica Simpson - Where you are!!!!!
I think ernie will like this song. Ernie dgr ernie...dgr lah kandai!!!
hehehehe

One Intended

For those of you who are dying to know the meaning behind one intended, I'll tell you. (Even if you don't care, just pretend to k)

So One Intended means Nothing! Or to be more specific, it has no meaning! So that means my blog has no meaning? Err well...here's how it goes

Once upon a time...LAME!

When I created this blog a zillion years ago, I was obsessed with myself...

Back to what I was saying... I was obsessed with the song Unintended by Mouse...Muse. So originally, I wanted to put my blog address as unintended, but it was taken by someone who called herself Lisa (May God bless you, if you know what I mean). Then, I wanted to put like iintend or intended or something like that, but I think it was too short. So lastly, i think of a number to go along with the word 'intended'. And the lucky number is One! Applause for number one! Hurray!! And I think it looks pretty nice as a long word ---> oneintended. Nice kan! I like the 3 e's that makes it looks somewhat peaceful.

Yup thats about it.

High

Yey Ernie Sulastri tagged me! I'm ecstatic as hell!!!! lol Please do note that some answers are just for entertainment. Tiada kaitan dengan yang mati ataupun meninggal.

1. The first person who tagged you is: Ernie! She's the only person that tags me. Because she's the only person who would do such thing.

2. Your relationship with him/her is: Matair. Ok lah just frends.

3. Your Five impression of him/her:
*Puts family above everything
*Erm...loving?
*Seductive....hahahahaha
*Romantic...hehehhehe
*Awesome!!!!
*Kandai!!! hahaha

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you: Hmmm...Just smile

5. The most memorable thing he/she said to you: She said that I'm hot. And she said more than once okay! hehehehehehehehhe

6. If he/she become your lover, you will: Hug her 24/7...hehehehehehehe

7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she will have to improve on will be: Nothing...i like her the way she is...

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will: Penyapu die!!!

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be: Maruah. maruah...hahahah kan ernie kan...

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is:
I want to penyapu her. hahahah then hug her. hahahaha hohohohoho huhuhuhuhu

11. Your overall impression of him/her is: KANDAI!! hahhahahah..and cute!

12. How you think people around will feel about you: I'm too hot for their eyes. This is an honest answer. No arguments will be entertained

13. The characters you love of yourself are: HOT LAH SEYYY!!!

14.On the contrary, the characteristics you hate most about yourself are: I can't have a girlfrend becoz my fanz will be in a total chaos if i have one. So i think i should have a boyfrend instead.

15. The most ideal person you want to be is: Ziana Zain! No!!! who wants to be like her. Hahahah taklah. erm. I want to be like Rasullulah s.a.w

16. For that people who care and like you, say something to them: Get a life!!! hahahaha no lah i love myself...and u all

17. Pass this quiz to 8 people that you wish to know how they feel about you, pass to people who have blog only:
1. Ziana Zain
2. Sameer
3. Oprah Winfery
4. Taufik Batisah
5. Hady Mirza
6. Mao Zedong
7. Tina Jailani
8. Yang Tien

18. who is no. 6 having relationship with? What u mean having? He's an arwah.

19. is no.3 female or male? Can't decide. Maybe conphuse

20. if no. 7 and 8 are together: HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA I can only laugh. Kecian my lecturers.

21. what is no.2 studying about? Some It related course. Beware, he will learn how to hack!

22. when was the last time you had a chat with no. 3? Just now. We talked about world peace.

23. what kind of music band does no.8 like? He likes Ziana Zain too. He's the president of the fankelab.

24. does no.1 have any siblings? Hell yeah!

25. will you woo no.1? Like duh!

26. how about no.7? Ms Tina is constantly looking for me. I think she's the one thats trying desperately to woo me.

27. is no.4 single? No. He's attached to me

28. if no.4 die, what will you do? I will tell Sulinah.

29. what is the surname of no.5? Ermmmmmmm...

30.will you woo no.6? Even if he's still alive, no.

31. what is the hobby of no.6? Ermmm...

32. if you are down, who will you go to & why? I would like to keep this answer private pleaseee.

33. if you had only 5hrs b4 u die, who would u wanna spent time with &why? Ernie, Tina Jailani, Yang Tien, Jovi, Ayu.

34.do you feel like smacking your friend face or appreciate them if suddenly he/she say actually they hated you? I will sayyy... *do i look like I care?* Then...KANDAI! then...penyapu2 die.

35. what are u feeling now? High. Extremely High!

Writting!

ARGH! I'm writting this malay story entitled Kiblat Ku (promote sket ehem2...) and I forgot all the bahasa and ways to describe wind, hair, feelings like tears, happy etc2. Its been over a year since I last write. arghhhh!!!

I still rememeber during my secondary school days. While other malay students memorize words and phrases, I chose to put my interest to good use. Since I'm always listening to malay songs, I used the lyrics for my malay composition. Habez lagu2 ziana, ning, and lyrics2 by ahmad fetri yahya aku kebas! hahahah

AZ & ZZ

Erm...Anuar Zain is having his concert in Singapore at the Esplanade on 8 November. The cheapest tix is $60. BUT, the most exciting part is...

Ziana Zain is also coming to watch the concert. She has already bought a VIP tix! YEY!!!!!!!

I don't know y im excited. huhuhuhu

Sorry

Sorry...

And i think that from now on, I'll just smile and keep quiet. It seems that I've been making sooo many mistakes these past few days. I don't know. Maybe I'm just

.
.
.

lonely....?

Or maybe because I have no one to talk to?

But seeing you releasing your anger or whatever things you want to talk about...thank you for that. Because that is something I can't do. Well, it feels good after that isn't it?

Sameer

I would like to thank my dear friend, Sameer, for wasting his time finding blogskins for me and helping me put it. I like this skin! Its so dark. Nice! Thanks again Sameer for clearly wasting your time for my benefit.

I talk like this to him but he knows how much I appreciate his help. Right Sameer?

Lailatul Qadar

Starting from tomorrow, there will only be 10 days left till the end of Ramadhan, which means, in the last 10 days of Ramdhan, on one of the nights, akan timbul satu malam yang penuh bermakna, iaitu malam Lailatul Qadar. Jadi, muslimin dan muslimat digalakkan supaya beramal dengan lebih banyak lagi kerana tiada siapapun yang tau bila malam tersebut. Tapi, jikalau anda percaya dan membuat amal dengan ikhlas dan bersungguh-sungguh, insyaAllah, Allah akan menemukan anda dengan malam tersebut.

Tanda2 malam Lailatul Qadar yang aku tau ialah, malam itu sangat sunyi. Tiada bau sebarang nyawa pon. Daun2 pun tidak akan err...move?

If you really want it that bad, insyaAllah you will have it. But you have to prove it to Him that you want it. How? The answer is in your heart.

Anuar & Ziana - Keabadian Cinta

Ziana and Anuar duet...
Ziana Zain's voice sooooo doesnt suit this song. Hahaha

A letter to me?

Assalamualaikum ...

Bits n pieces s reflection ... so abt dat filmg tg or wadever u wanna do in life, HE knows wads best 4 u ...
... continue to ikhtiar n put into action (persevere n endure) to realise ur dream ... Insyaallah, he will always b er 4 u.

but if u get wad u want, remember to remain tawadduk n practice wad uve preached ... Sentiasa bersyukur kepadaNYA n jgn lupa diri let alone HIM. If its ur rezeki, tak ke mana ... it remains urs !

Even if u fail, at least u try n learn fr the experience s a self-reflection. That makes u grow into a better person. For all u knw, he has in store tgs that u least expected.

Beliv in HIM n urself, m sure u can do it !

tke cre
Ruzanna

Sexy voice

Remember yang tien's voice on the last day of the term? Yez, thats currently the state that I'm in now. I've been coughing non-stop these few days and it seems to affect my voice. Now I can't talk properly. But sound sexy though, I like! hahaha

Bloggg

I have nothing else to blog, so im blogging this. Erm, these are the compulsary blog that i will go to everyday.

Ernie - guitarlovernie.blogspot.com
Sulinah - tehsusu.blogspot.com
Nadhirah (i told u after i type sulinah automatic kuar nadhirah) - deathsweetseduction.blogspot.com
Adi Luqman - adiluqman.blogspot.com

If I have nothing better to do...

Hakim - haq89.blogspot.com

I think thats all I supposed...

Chipmunks sang Ziana's Dingin

Ever wonder what will it sound like if chipmunks sang the ever high picth song, Dingin? Well, look no further, look this video!!!



My comments - Its super scary! high picth die mak oi!! Aku nye tekak plak tibe sakit ni...

Video Clips

Reading from Ernie's entry, I too wanna talk about video clips.
hahahahahahahahahahahhahahahaahhahahahahahahahahahahaha

A video clip is VERY important to an artist because a good vclip can attract more audience and listeners. The song might not be good, but if the vclip is good, people would slowly began to like the song too. Of coz everyone knows this, but its sad that money is always the issue of why vclips don;t turn up nice. *Takde duit dik*. Its even sadder to see some of the best song end up on a shitty video. Some of them are...(Oh btw im talking about malaysia's vclip, because ziana zain is a malaysian!)

Dingin - Ziana Zain


Ingin ku miliki - Dayang Nurfaizah (the song isn't that nice either)


Bunga-bunga Cinta - Misha Omar (I dont really like this song but alot of ppl does)


Bisakah - Siti Nurahliza (this is by far her best vid ever, but becoz its siti, im being biased)


Biarlah Rahsia - SIti Nurhaliza (This is called ABUSING EFFECTS, now i understand y tina hates effects)


ok i lets dont drag this...now the better video clips

Bunga-Bunga Cinta - Misha (director by an INDON director, sooo much better)


Sampai Syurga - Faizal Tahir


Lagu Untukmu - Meet uncle hussain (cant deny that the song's irritating tho)


Izinkan ku pergi - Kaer


Menadah Gerimis - Ziana Zain (composed by Agnotti's extremely far cousin, Azmeer, MAY FAV COMPOSER!)


Awan yang terpilu - Ning Bazooka (the best vclip i ever seen!, but too bad the song very slow and draggy)


Cramu - Nikki feat. Zahid (in terms of entertainment, this besttttt)


Elegi Sepi - Azharina (this is ok, but this is one of my fav song!!!)


of coz theres alot more but this is just some that i could think of right now...

Oh and that time when I went to Kl to see Ziana Zain's raya concert, she treated her fanclub Zianafolks (ard 40ppl) Nasi Lemak at Bangsar. And some of then asked her why vclip for dingin so the takde harapan. She said that it was the company that did it for her. In other words, its the completely the company's money and Ziana has no say. So she has to give in lor. She herself didnt like the video actually.

Berbuka Puasa Bersama MGBD

Since most of them are not always online and I've lost my hp, which means all of their contacts, which are not worth remembering. NO lahhhhhhhh main2 je...Ernie gave me an excellent idea which is to advertise it at my blog.

I've decided to fulfil Agnotti's wishes of breaking fast together. Rmb one of the days when we r doing our projects, then suddenly Agnotti said something about breaking fast together? Remember or noT?!!!

Anywayz, since I assume no one's doing anything about it, I've decided to take proactive measures and to organize this. heh

And since everybody's into saving money these days, I've also decided to break fast at a MASJID! Yez everyone, its masjid. Now, knowing me, I will have theories to support my decision righttt.

Ok so why mosque? Well, its not everyday you break fast at a mosque right? And the food is free (ok this may sound abit bad). But think about it, after that we can all terawih together and gain pahala right??? So 2-in-1. Rather than breaking fast outside (which we have to pay) and then we may forget our responsibility, which is to pray (which may result in getting DOSA). You will feel very different when you break fast in a mosque. Really, suasananya berbeda. You will feel more grateful and appreciate what you have.

So the chosen masjid is......

MASJID SULTAN! (bugis)

WHY?

Because only in masjid sultan, we can sit and mix around male and female. Other mosque, the male sits one corner and the female, the other corner. But in masjid sultan, its not separated so we can sit together!!! Best kannn...

So, any objection? If you have, plz comment on the comments...

Oh the dates are...ermm lets see...

This wednesday - friday? Not all of the 3 days but one of the days. YOU decide ok. We dont wan to go on a weekend becoz it will be crowded.

Wanita - Siti

Lagu Wanita nyanyian Siti Nurhaliza yang sedang hangat di kalangan peminat-peminatnya yang syok sendiri, kini menjadi kontroversi apabila didapati bahawa lagu tersebut telah terlebih dahulu diberikan kepada penyanyi Indonesia, Elfee ape ntah.

Lihat video ini
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DWbt8hJP06A

No wonder the composer gave it to Siti, coz obviously Siti sang it like 100000x better than the ori singer. Errr...why am I siding Siti?

Photo

I think my blog lacks photos and pictures. Hell it doesnt even have one since I created it. Maybe I should start cam-whoring alone in this room. Huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu ...

I miss Photobooth ...

some random qns...
What would sheep count if they had trouble sleeping?

Pandi...

Ok my post has nothing to do with the title...

Yesterday watched this French movie at Arts Central, Les Choristes or The Chorus. Nice sehhhhh....

Then before that, watched the movie 21. About a super intelligent guy who was introduced to gambling by his own lecturer. Since he has a super IQ, he figured out the probabalities and mathematical whatever of all the ways to gamble and ended up winning ALL games. COOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL sehhh...

Oh and I've decided I want to be different from me frens and so, I'm not gonna put a tagboard or shoutbox or wateva u called it.

Sinar Lebaran

Saw the sneak preview of Sinar Lebaran on Suria just now. Looks so meriah! There's artists like Farah Asyikin (???P, Abon (the comedian), Aliff Aziz (perlu ker?), Maiya Rahman (yey), Dayang Nurfaizah (oklah), Fauzie Laily (his the host, erk), Hady Mirza (SUPER YEY), Taufik Batisah (can lah) and many many many moreeee...

Kan satu2 artis kene komen ngan aku...

And taufik and hady did a duet of some sad song I think. Er...ade ape2 lagi nak ckp?

Dumb?

People kept calling me dumb/idiot (based on the lost-bag incident) for leaving my things at the back unattended. But now I say, your're dumb. Why? Because you failed to think and see a different perspective than what is seen. What do I mean by that?

Ya Allah Ya Tuhan ku, dalam bulan Ramadhan ini, Engkau kuatkanlah imanku agar aku dapat beribadah dengan lebih banyak dan tekun lagi, supaya aku tidak terlalu taksub dengan dunia hiburan ini.

That is what I always doa during my prayer. And I cried at home, the night I lost my bag. Why? Not because I lost my bag, but because He has answered my prayer. This shows that he's been with me ALL the time.

Because each time when I want to pray, or recite the Al-Qur'an, or do any ibadah, I can't. Even if I do, I will delay and delay and delay and won't do it religiously. Why? Because my laptop is always in front of me! In another words, my laptop is the distraction that keeps me away from doing my ibadah. There's always something to do in my laptop, either necessary or unnecessary.

So what did God do? He takes away the distraction from me! Not by malfunctioning or inserting a virus at my laptop, He does it even better, He makes it disappear from my sight. Honestly, now I felt much better now that the key distraction (my laptop) is gone. Because now that my lappy is gone, I have nothing much to do. And when I have nothing much to do, I read all the religion books that I bought for how many years ago, but NEVER read them. See how hypocrite I can be. Beli buku2 agama but never reads.

So, Alhamdulilah, now that my lappy is gone, I can concentrate ALOT MORE on my ibadah. I've been reading and upgrading myself alot on Islam these few days. Knowing the proper way to wudu', the proper way to solat (memperhalusi solat), and all the doas' and the sunnat2 solat. Not only did I read, but I also practice. Yup, been doing alot of the ssolat sunnat like Tahajud, Hajat, solat sunat wudu' (did you know that this solat exist?). There's also solat sunat mutlaq in which this solat is just for people who wants to pray.

See, sesungguhnya Allah itu Maha Mengetahui. If my laptop is still with me, I wouldnt do all this.

So now I said you're the dumb one. Why? Because I'm here with all the pahala while you're there doing nothing ...

How I lost my Life ...

It happened 2 days ago when my Sec school friend Jayasri called me to help her on her assignment. Not actually help but rather to do it for her since I know designing and she know nuts about it. So off I go at Ang Mo Kio Banquet (no I didn't eat) to meet her. Around 5.30pm, my laptop's battery almost died, so we proceed to the library to charge it. Around 6.40pm, though her work still hasn't finish yet, I told her I need to go off to break my fast at Ang Mo Kio mosque.

So off I went there happily (with my things still with me) and reached there around 7pm. The food there is self-service so you have to pandai2 amek. I took Chicken Rice, plus a dulang of Nasi Briyani and some cakes. At this time, my bag isn't with me becoz I left it at the ik'tikaf area (the area meant for praying).

Then after everything's done, around 8pm I left the mosque to walked around with my handphone and headphone. And no, I didn't carry my bag with me, its still on the mosque.

When I return for Isya', yes its still there, as I expected. Good. Then I went to put my headphone and handphone at my bag and left it at the back as I went to pray at the front. When I put my bag there at the back, I felt something wasn't right and kept staring at it for awhile. Hmmmm, and for some reason I put my hp inside my bag, coz usually I kept it in my pocket. Hmmmm ...

Then I went to pray at the front for Isya' and after that, Terawih 8 rakaat. THEN, when I went back to get my bag, it was GONE!!!! My bag which has my wallet, laptop, house key, hp and other stuffs, ARE GONE!!!!

So what do I do? I inform the masjid people about this and apart from feeling sorry for me and telling me I shouldnt leave my things at the back because there's been alot of thefts in the mosque, one of them said that he will try to check the camera and if he found something, he will contact me. But uptill now, no calls from him. I doubt that he will find anything coz the camera is located far away from where I placed my bag. Hmmmm

What's worst is that the next day, I was supposed to meet this guy (Kak Ruzanna's good fren) for a jod interview as a freelance graphic designer. My hope is that I could save some money for the film-making, but uwaaaaaaaaa

I guess I shall end my story here...

And btw, u dun have to say im an idiot for leaving my things unattended blah blah balh coz Ive been there!

Lost

I lost my handphone. I lost my laptop. I lost my house key. I lost my bag. I lost my wallet. And I've lost a friend.

And you think you had a bad day.

Losing my laptop = losing all my school works, my songs, my personal stuffs, my movies, my collection of plug-ins of after effects, and half of my life.

Losing MY after effects = not being able to design flyers for zianafolks annual dinner, t-shirt for our redang trip, doing my portfolio ...

And you still think that you had a bad day.

Tagged!

Yey I got tagged! huhu

1. Where would you go if someone sponsors you an air ticket?
- Hmm, maybe Paris?

2. What's your favourite things to do?
- Compose songs, listen to good music, pray, mengaji, watch good movies.

3. Do you think money can buy happiness?
- Yes, but it can never last

4. If you were given a chance to receive something,what would it be?
- Money

5. Things you can't live without?
- LOVE.

6. What are you afraid to lose?
- Everyone around me.

7. If you win $1 million dollars,what would you do?
- Donation, waqaf, parents, direct my own movie, buy things for people.

8. What do you dream of doing in the future?
- Directing my own movie. *Its coming true*

9. List down 3 good points about the person who gave you this survey.
- Ah I need a few years to think about this. Haha no lah. She's sweet, nice, understanding.

10. What makes you happy?
- Seeing other people happy and being close to Him.

11. What type of person you hate most?
- The one that likes to lie

12. If you have a superpower what would it be?
- Storm from x-men! Dari kecik aku nak power die!

13. Would you go for happiness or money?
- Right now money, because I really need money.

14. Who do you think is the most important people in your life?
- People? My parents. And those whom I'm close with

15. If you have a boyfriend,would you die for him?
- If I have a boyfrend, I would be gay.

16. Who's the last person who hugged you?
- If I'm not wrong, I think its Rizal from zianafolks. Quite some time back though

17. What is the one thing that you want to do badly right now?
- Eat. Because I'm fasting and hungry from all the sneezing since 1hr ago! Pale sakit beb!

18. Who are you close to?
- Hmmmm

19. Are you courage enough to tell the person that you like him?
- Hmmmm

20. If you could do one thing all over again what would it be?
- Nah nothing. Im proud of what I am today.

21. 7 things that scares you?
- Cockroach, especially flying ones. Er not much actually.

22. 7 things that you like/love the most?
- My macbook, Al-Qur'an, Baju Kurung, Jubah, Songkok, Food.

23. 7 important things in my room?
-Handphone, hardisk, Al-Qur'an, Jubah, Headphone, Bed, Macbook, charger.

7 people to do this questionnaire?
-Er...Its not like alot of people read my blog. Hmmmm, maybe Sameer, er...then any passerby who happen to read this.

Thank You

Elo! Lame tak blog?

Not becoz I'm lazy, but my internet's uzur for the past week. Only yesterday dah kembali normal.

So many things to share, so many stories to tell, so many feelings to express.

She's right. Its not good to bottle up your feelings because the ending can be hazardous. It's good to share or open up all the difficulties, happiness, and experiences you had in life, be it to your family, your relatives, your friends or anyone you're confortable with. It strucked me to think about my life when Agnotti once asked me *Do you have anyone you can talk to? ...*

Of coz I answered yes. But the truth is, do I? Then I went on telling her that I can talk to or express myself to alot of people. Why is this so? Its because I'm blessed with so many good friends in life, friends that have made alot of impact in my life one way or another. And I thank God for that.

But why can't I talk about my problems to people, the way they talked to me? Is it because I'm not an expressive person? Or I'm very secretive? Or because of my communications with my family that led me to this? I don't have this answer. I'm lost.

That's why I appreciate it alot when people tell/share me about their experience, their hardships, their happiness, or alomost anything about their lives. It means alot to me. Not because I have new things to listen to, but the thought of telling me about your problems is what moved me. Thank you Sulinah for telling me about your 3 yrs 3 mths thingy. Thank you Ernie for telling me about your family, relationships. Thank you Sin Yee for telling me something that you don't want anyone else to know. Thank you Hafiza for sharing me the times you had with ur bf. Thank you Sameer for always being there for me. This could go on forever ...

Especially the little things that my frens did. You may think like what the hell, bende kecik je pon ko leh ingat. What people consider small may mean a big thing to others. I still rmb the first day of the term where Nadhirah ajak me for lunch (not with me alone duh). Thank u for that. And thank you for that time you put a post in ur blog for me to wish my birthday.

Thank you my frens for msn-ning with me. Its a small thing, but I appreciate it alot. Thanks Liyana for asking me where have I been. Thanks Hafiza for all the laughter you gave me during our conversation.

Thank you people for smiling at me when you look at me. Thank you for laughing with me.

Lastly, thank you Kak Ruzanna for constantly worrying about me and helping me out. This is the real blessing of winning Projek Cerpen, which is to meet you. You had made such a huge impact in my life that I feel as if I's a totally different person now. Thank you for believing in me and for always being there for me. I can safely say that you are the best person I ever met in my whole life.

To kak ruzanna, when are we continuing with *Kiblatku*? Lets not just stop here.

How I wish I could meet each and everyone of my frens personally to tell them how much they mean to me in my life and to thank them for what they have done to me. A thank you is not enough, but the least I could do is to sedekahkan mereka dengan secebis doa.

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Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, Alhamdulilah atas segala-galanya yang Engkau telah berikan kepadaku. Alhamdulilah di atas segala pahit dan manis yang telah aku alami. Alhamdulilah, kerana Engkau telah memperkenalkan aku kepada teman-teman ku itu, dan sesungguhnya setiap teman ku adalah istimewa bagiku. Alhamdulilah. Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, Engkau ampunilah segala dosa-dosa mereka, sebagaimana Engkau telah mengampunkan dosa-dosaku di waktu aku menunaikan fardhu Haji. Engkau lindungilah mereka daripada azab api nerekaMu dah masukkanlah mereka ke dalam syurgaMu itu. Engkau kuatkanlah iman mereka di bulan Ramadhan ini, agar mereka dapat tempuhi segala ujian-ujianMu dengan senang, agar mereka dapat bersabar di dalam setiap ujianMu itu, agar mereka tidak terlalu terjerumus dalam dunia hiburan, agar mereka dapat beribadah/beramal dengan lebih banyak dan lebih iklhas, dan agar mereka dapat menjalani bulan Ramadhan ini dengan senang. Pada yang sakit, Engkau sembuhkanlah, pada yang berada di dalam kesulitan hidup, Engkau senangkanlah. Ya Allah Ya Tuhan, berikanlah mereka peluang untuk menemui malam yang penuh bermakna iaitu malam Lailatul Qadar, seseungguhnya malam itu hanya datang sekali dalam setahun. Ya allah Ya Tuhanku, akhir sekali, Engkau berikanlah Ramadhan ini, ramadhan yang paling bermakna dalam hidup mereka, agar mereka dapat keberkatan dan keredhaanMu Ya Allah. Amin, Amin ya Rabbal A'lamin ...

Its Over. Say Goodbye

Believe or not, the Robinson's project is finally OVER! No words can describe the feelings I felt when I left the electronic theatre. And to my 3 dear grpmates: Agnotti, Sulinah, Nadhirah (automatically after i write sulinah mesti nadhirah). Its been a wonderful time working with you people. Sorry I didn't contribute much to the project, both on ideas and technicallities. But Good Job (hancock)

Now that the rob's project is over, people might think that I'm very free. But NO! I'm still busy. I'm always gonna be busy. Why? Because I like to keep myself occupied. I still have to design the t-shirt for zianafolks, and the Redang trip that we're having on April next year. And I'm re-doing alot of my previous projects (who am i, advertisement etc2) so that I can have a better portfolio. And since fasting month is near, I'll be bz-ying myself travelling all the different masjids in Singapore for Terawih. Sape2 nak join? And I have another very very big project going on. But now we need money. Hopefully we could get enough budget to start the project.

Friday!

Today is officially FRIDAY! I'm like so the happy! hahahahahahahahahahahahhahaha
But I'll be even more happier after 4 or 5 pm coz thats when the presentation ends!!!!!!
happy lah sey!!!
FInally I can have a life!

Tetris

While fanaticly playing tetris just now, I thought of this ...
Dengar tau

Life is like a game of Tetris (hehe). Its your choice to decide where to place each piece that is given, and each place you put has its own consequence, whether it may fit or not.

make sense kan!!! yey!!!

Friday dear

Please Friday, please appear quickly! I need you badly! Don't leave me in this madness alone oh Friday my love. Right now, your're everything to me! I need you! Please don't brake my heart!

Kiblatku

The feelings' getting stronger day by day. I want to do it.

KEYNOTE

AKU NAK BUAT KEYNOTE!!!

The Call (Don't wait for me)

I'm in love with the song - The Call by backstreet boyz!!

Dingin sedingin-dinginnya

Just got a news from zianafolks.net that Dingin is out from carta Muzik-muzik!!! The sad thing is, it only managed to stay for 9 pathetic weeks. The most shocking and weird part is, the week be4 it went out, it was at no.9 (out of 20), and the next week terus out! How could this be?!! From no.9 to out! If there's only 10 songs in the chart, then it makes sense lah. Tapi ni 20!! Argh sad plus angry!! Must be some political reasons!

Anywayz, Im currently addicted to Backstreet boyz plus Westlifes' songs. Call me a dork all u want.

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Feeling very down lately, especially when I reached home. And being even more quiet. I don't know. I'm just not happy. I don't know what to do.

Biarlah Rahsia

I was watching tv and came across this video clip of Siti Nurhaliza's Biarlah Rahsia. Its such a pathetic vclip! No doubt its very very beautiful in terms of visuals. But all the effects and motives are so redundant!! Doesnt suit the song at all! They should have the vclip more down to earth and humbly done. Maybe they can even show Siti when she's at the most depressing state of her life, to enhance the phrase *Pernahkah kau bermimpi seketika berada di tempatku*. Thus, this is one of the worst vclip ever made. Its not about the visuals, its about the concept. Well, sometimes visuals do contribute, but usually its the concept.

But everybody still know that Ziana Zain's Dingin and Melara Jiwa is one of the worst vclip in history.

Feelings

I'm in a weird position now. I felt like I'm playing with people's feelings and I don't like it. But is it their fault for assuming when there's no declaration? Argh I just want to come clean with them!

HSR

I was reading Agnotti's blog when I came across this phrase from one of her entry that made me laugh like there's no tomorrow.

Hopeless social retard ...

Waiting ...

Movies that I'm DYING to watch:

Susuk (Just released)
Dukun (Masih diperap, or is it banned?)
Muallaf (New Movie by Yasmin, but not yet released)
Never Back Down (A long released movie)

Bile nak tengok?

Borrow?

It suddenly triggers me to write something about the new season of Jeritan Sepi. Yes you all might have realised that there's a new season of Jeritan Sepi, but with totally new cast and storyline! Extremely different from the previous Jeritan Sepi that we know, with the infamous CIk Leh. That show created a phenomenal in the industry whereby it sets a record of the highest rated programme ever. I cant remember what the percentage are, but nonetheless, its amazingly huge.

And so, the question lies, why do the production team has to borrow the title for the new season? Its a completely different casts, storyline and has nothing to do with the previous seasons mind you! Don't they have confidence that their so-called new season of Jeritan Sepi will be able to make it? Come on thats so unoriginal! *Tumpang glamer*. Oh btw, the new season is called *Jeritan Sepi: Memburu Kasih*. Why not just use Memburu Kasih? Do they want to make a compliation of all the different Jeritan Sepis? I doubt so. They are just tumpang-ing glamer of the success of the previous Jeritan Sepis. I can't stand it!

If you guyz remembered the previosu JS, the first season was named *Selagi Ada Kasih: Jeritan Sepi*. Yes the opening tagline was SAK, not jeritan sepi. Remembered the successful show Selagi Ada Kasih where Era farida was the talk of the town? (Suddenly reminds me of pinching) Again the production team was not convinced that their show would make it, so they decided to borrow the title from the previous successful show Selagi Ada Kasih. Irritating kan.

Only when Jeritan Sepi create a major impact whereby it even overshadowed the success of Selagi Ada Kasih, the production team used just Jeritan Sepi for the season 2 opening tag. EEEE cam nak cekik2 production team tu!

Another great example is Rahsia Perkahwinan whereby the second or third season has nothing to do with the first season. Just because the first season was a success, they decided to tumpang glamer fro the next seasons. As a result, the drama FLOPED! Its floped ok, jangan nak pandai2 argue ngan aku kate show tu successful juz becoz korang suke show tu.

So, why must you borrowed titles? So that the new drama would be a success? Or just to attract attention.

Like I said, if you do things with sincerity, insyaAllah everything will be fine.

No title ...

I just got a new hardisc today! Thankz Kak Ruzanna for accompanying me and giving me suggestion! Its a portable one (plug and play), unlike my previous one which needs to be plugged in first.

Oh, I was fasting today and this morning, I woke up ard 1pm and ate some cakes without realising that I was fasting! (Nak cakap alhamdulilah ker astaughfirullah?) Haha. Lucky my mother tegur me.

And Projek Rentak winner is Novella CInta. Yucks that song is so Jamal Abdillah. I want Lafaz!

My sister's getting a baby gerl sooooooon! And she's put my mother in-charge of giving the baby a name. If I were in her shoes, hell no! I'm gonna give my baby the name that I CHOOSE. Hmmm, what name eh?

Insyirah?
Iwana?
Marsya?
Zafirah?

or 2 syallabus like

Haza Iwana?
Laila Nisa?
Iffah Wasilah?
Izah Nasirah?

Ok fine I come out with the weirdest name.

WAIT!

Maybe should steal one of my classmates name. Sulinah, Nadhirah, Agnotti?
Or maybe one of the characters from sesame street. Ernie? Elmo?
Or maybe a character from pokemon. Siti Pikachu? Nur Charmender? Sri Squirtle?
Or maybe should just put Ziana.

Yez I think Ziana is the perfect name!

Projek Rentak

I was eating Mee Goreng that my mother bought me from geyalng when I saw the news showing the final 2 contestant from Projek Rentak! Argh I'm so jealous!! But like what Sulinah said to me a couple of months ago, *Ko ingat ko dah menang projek cerpen ko nak menang semua ah*. lol. But Im still jealous!

I don't know what has gotten into me lately. I've been keeping myself very quiet. Even in my studio project group. Not communicating with them much or even with my other frends. I'm more serious lately and even if they talk to me sometimes, I just smiled at them. Hmmm ...

Is it just a dream?

I've always dream of making a movie one day. I've already got the storyline, the settings, part of the script, and even the casting!! Tinggal nak execute je ... huhuhu

Putus Terpaksa

I've given up. My mood's very down and I can't be bothered anymore. I give up. From now on I'll just do as you say as long as you're happy. And when I now that you're happy, I'm happy.

Btw, the title's is Ziana Zain's old song from 1993.

Fenomena

Yez Suria is showing the extremely famous classic movie Fenomena!!!!! The title may not sound very familiar with you guyz but its the Isabella movie!! Yez the infamous Search - Isabella movie!!! FInally!!! I've been waiting that movie for years!! The last time I watched the show was in primary school. And I could still remember the last few scenes whereby the girl died i think but before she died, she recorded her voice saying somethings. Sad lah sey!

The word Fenomena reminds me of the Ziana Zain's raya Concert Fenomena ...

That is what happens when I visited way too many blogs, or when I have nothing better to do than to open and close the same blog simultaneaously (Is it the correct spelling?)

I finally cleared most of my stuffs in my mac and now I have 10GB! Hurray!!! Finally I can download the movie Never Back Down! Hurray lagi skali!!

Check!

Ok so now is not the right time to do a blog cleanup in the sense that putting tagboard and design a background. I got alot of things to do. Besides the studio project, I still have to design a T-shirt for Zianafolks Redang Trip next year April. Yez next year april, and they are already on the T-shirt now! SO FAST! One more thing, my creative submission. I'm supposed to gave birth to 16 artwork, but I only have 5! argh!

What shall I do?

Shall I go for an operation? I want to but I'm scared! I only have till next year for the operation. What shall I do?

And I need to go to doctor as soon as possible! I can't delay this anymore. The more I think about it the more it hurst. Kak Ruzanna cepat!!

p/s Sameer plz make yourself available just for one day and help me organize this blog! Although I obviously can do it myself, but like everyone in this world knows, I'm too lazy...

ZOMG!

Ok I was about to write something else here when suddenly this guy msn me something. I'm in DEEP trouble! But I can't force myself to tell him! I thought it was just a play! ZOMG!!!!

And now I totally forgot about what to write here!

Mirror

You can't always have everything in life. You can't be ambitious and wanting to do every single thing. When you are ambitious, people will laugh at you. Why? Simple. It goes to show that you have no focus in life and you do not know which direction you are heading to. Whatever things you do in life, do it with sincerity and always believe and have confidence in whatever you are doing. Only then will others look up and respect you. Not respect in the sense that orang tunduk pada kita but more into people treating you seriously. You know its so irritating when you show too much of your softer side until people don't really bother about you when it comes to work. Yup, I've learned.

Don't do things just because its nice, because others like it, or because the idea is working. Do it because that's what you want to do. People can give you a hell of lectures, ideas, advice, suggestions, but at the end of the day, is that what you want to do? Believe in yourself and InsyaAllah, everything will be fine. And if you're good, people will come to you, you don't have to go to them.

Learn to sacrifice and let go. I believe that life is all about facing the challenges from God. Never ever regret in whatever ways you've done or became. Only through the hardships will you appreciate. Only through the tears will you treasure. Only through the pain will you learn. And only through the sufferings will you find true happiness.

When you break down one day, don't be angry or whine or scream or do something stupid. Mengadulah kepadaNya and rest assure that you will be rewarded in different ways you can never imagine. Subhanallah. I know I have. I have had the best reward in my life and I don't regret why I became like this.

Sesungguhnya dalam surah Al-Inshirah ayat ke-5 menyatakan bahawa *Fainna ma'al usri yusran, Inna ma'al usri yusra.* (I wrote that, so if there's any mistakes in the translation, sorry) Meaning, dalam setiap keburukan itu pasti ade kebaikannya. And its repeated.

Just to add, don't always view things in a negative ways. Work on your strengths and eventually, it will overcome your weakness.

Just be yourself!

I'm happy to see you happy ...Enough of doing things for others! I just want to pamper myself and do something I'm proud of.

Zianafolks

Heloo heloo heloo!

Den baru balik dari zianafolks outing tadi. Penat noh walaupun stengah hari je! Al-kisahnya, dak2 zianafolks malaysia ni datang singapore untuk bertemu dengan den yang comel ni ha (walaupon). Outing ni terbagi kepada 2 hari, saturday dan sunday. Wah dah jadi cam reporter plak kan.

ANywayzzz...

Den cuma hadir hari sunday sahaja. Ini disebabkan den ditempiaskan oleh assignment2 skolah yang tak habez2 ni ha!! Sekarang ni pon tgh stuck ngan typography, mood bod, style frame yang tak habez2 since friday!! (bila anda bace statement tu, tone anda harus increase kepada marah sedikit yer)

So tadi kite breakfast dekat Hajjah Maimunah tu ha. Meja makan kitorang dihiasi oleh kuih2 yang cantik2 dan warna-warni belaka yang hanya sekadar perhiasan sahaja kerana tiada sape pon yang makan kuih tu noh! Lepas tu, kitorang pegi ke Hard Rock Cafe store (take note that ini pertama kali den pegi building ni. Sebelum tu tak tau menahu pon tentang kewujudan HRC ni). Di sini, bro ezam nak sangat baju HRC tu kan. Lepas tu, kite bertolak ke Orchard dan Bugis di mana mereka membeli hias-hiasan seperti cawan2, keychain2 dan sebagainye. Baju ade beli tak? Ntah eh.

Selepas itu, kite bertolak ke tempat kerja janzz di mana sape2 yang nak, dapat aiskrim Anderson free! Double scoop u! Jeles I tau, I tengok diorang menjilat2 aiskrim tu. Mase tu, den tak selera nak makan aiskrim, tapi bile dah difikir ni, patut amek je u! bende free kan! tak tau lagi ker muke2 spore ni yang tak pantang2 nmpk bende free ni, lagi2 makanan. Huhuh jahat plak aku ni.

Dan akhir sekali, kitorang pon ke lavender kerana its time to go home. Sedih kan, lagi2 teringat kat Kak In ku yang tak berkesempatan untuk beli baju superman kat bugis tu ha. Mati2 die nak beli tu, tapi mase tak mengizinkan.

Sebelum mereka naik bus, ade jugak pergaduhan WWE antara kak rin dan kak syco ni. Al-kisahnya, Kak syco yang berasal dari mesia ni bagi kak rin yang dok spore ni some cash. Untuk ape pon aku tak tau lah, tak ambik tau pon. Tau2 jerlah walaupon org2 spore ni suke bende2 free, tapi kalo pasal duit, kami memang sopan. Jadi, berlakulah pergaduhan tolak-menolak antara dua beradik ni ha. Cian duit tu, berpindah2 tempat. (duit pulak yang dikeciankan kannnn) Kejap kat kak rin, kejap kak syco, kejap kak kuzza, kat haq, kat nura, kat kak in. Sampat haq kene *rogol* oleh kak in tu.

Dan lepas itu, mereka2 pon menaiki bus, dan pulanglah ke negara masing2. (cakap macam satu2 dtg dari indon, dari uk, dari egypt, dari japan bagai kannn).

kan tgk aku ckp ni pon dah terikut2 diorang ni ha.

jikalau anda mahu join zianafolks (fanclub terunggul malaysia, jgn marah) silalah ke zianafolks.net for the forum.

Thankz to all Zianafolks who turned up for the event! Your presence is greatly appreciated by me (us). lol!

Thousand Lies ...

They are nice poeple. Its just that when they are in a grp, everything starts to go haywire. They can't control themselves nor other people's feelings. And then, they start to blame her. Those violent words that comes out of their mouth ...God knows.
Its too hurting for her. Then they said that she's overreacting over something small. What is *small* actually? Different people has different perception of *small*. What is small to them might be big to others.

Or maybe I'm the one overreacting?

Lesson for today - Think before you talk.

Remember

Disebutkan oleh hadith Rasulullah saw bahawa sepuluh orang yang mayatnya TIDAK BUSUK dan TIDAK REPUT dan akan bangkit dalam tubuh asal diwaktu mati:

1. Para Nabi

2. Para Ahli Jihad

3. Para Alim Ulama

4. Para Syuhada

5. Para Penghafal Al Quran

6. Imam atau Pemimpin yang Adil

7. Tukang Azan

8. Wanita yang mati kelahiran/beranak

9. Orang mati dibunuh atau dianiaya

10. Orang yang mati di siang hari atau di malam Jumaat
jika mereka itu dari kalangan orang yang beriman

My tests starts here ...

Skipped school today because I needed my extra beauty sleep. Been sleeping at 3am this past few days and waking up early. Of course I'm tired. Had a talk with Kak Ruzanna and felt so relieved after telling her my situation. Didn't tell her alot of things though but I think she somehow guessed it but kept quiet. Throughout the conversation, I just smiled at her but inside, my heart was crying. Bak kate hafiza, senyuman dalam duka, hehe. Maybe this is the real blessing for winning Projek Cerpen.

Now, the wedding photos of Baihakki and Norfasarie. I only took 2 because I don't really like taking pictures. Its a private function so yeah, no celebs. *After 5 mins*, still uploading, argh! juz post lah!!

Listen ....

In school now. Lecturer's here but no lesson. Great!

Crapped during lunch time juz now with the usual Cherine's gang. Talked about church, swimming, piano lessons, how pathetic we are during sec school's life, cooking lessons, miracles and alot more topics. We talked like nobody's business. Actually they talked, I juz listened.

With You ...

Just got back from the prestigious wedding of none other than Baihakki and Norfasarie. Will story later and pics will be uploaded too. Right now, I'm tired. Oh why With You? Because I think they made a CD about their lives and the title is With You, its about the same as what Ning Baizura did with her husband.

People

You know sometimes if you're too easy-going and likes to crap, people don't take you seriously. Not all but 99% sure don't.

What do you think?

Ok people this template will just be temporary while I design my own with the help of After Effects.

Yesterday, went to the night festival with a bunch of me frens to catch Hafiza's percussion band performance. For a while there we thought we missed the performance because we were at the wrong place. To be specific, we were opposite of where they were performing. But in the end, the band went over for the ZouK Party Concert (which we were at the whole time). When we saw Hafiza walked past us and shouting her name, she was exceedingly happy! She quickly went and hug ernie, and then started jumping around us. Aku plak yang terharu ni.

Ok change of topic ...

Sometimes, I wonder if I'm a good son. I've been doing things that my parents dislike and been disobeying them. Hmmm, but of course I know what I'm doing. What do you think?

To pass time

I was tagged by Ernie to do this list of questionaire. So here I go...*deep breath*

1. What do you want the most?
Simple, To be a good muslim! Thats the only thing I want most in life. Nothing else

2. Where do you wanna go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
Makkah.

3. What's your favourite thing to do?
Swimming, exploring, err...basically being adventurous! (right Jia En?)

4. Do you think money can buy you happiness?
Me, NO!

5. If you can have one dream come true, what will it be?
To have powers like in the x-men. To be specific, STORM!!

6. Do you believe you can leave without money?
NO! No money no food, amacam nak makan!

7. Who do you wanna be with right now?
Him

8. What's LOVE?
Love is Sacrifice

9. What do you dream of doing in the future?
Be a professional composer, write a book, produce and direct a movie, explore around the world, rock-climbing, indulge in brutal or violent sports.

10. List 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
Ernie eh...Hmmm *after 1hr of thorough thinking*, Nice, nice, and really very nice!

11. What makes you happy?
Seeing my frens happy. And people saying that I'm hot (which everybody does).

12. What type of person do you hate the most?
The one that likes to lie. One word, liars

13. Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
The cover page of men's health.

14. AT what age did you intend to get married?
I seriously don't know whether I should get married. I mean my fanz will be like a total chaos once they even find out that Im attached, let alone married. Ok seriously, 28?

15. What are you thinking right now?
Sex. Seriously Im like having this sex conversation with Jed impostering as Natsha M. Let our imaginations go wild!!
I don't know whether that is a good thing to say or not, but wtf. (walk, trip, fall)

16. What do you wish for?
Don't know yet.

17. If you had a chance to change your life, what would you want it to be?
Private. Not change my private parts but my answer to this qns is Private!

18. The love of your life now?
No one. Sepi gitu

19. Are you courageous enough to tell a person u like him/her?
Only if I'm confident that the person likes me too.

20. Any experience that you can never forget?
Taknak bilang! BOO!!!

Instructions: Remove one qns from above and add in your own personal question. Make it a total of 20 questions. Then tag 8 people at the end of your post.

1. Ziana Zain
2. Kak g
3. Siti Roziana binte Zain
4. Mayuni Omar
5. Steve (HAHAHAHA)
6. Tina Jailani
7. Ahmad Mashidee (If Tina reads this, Im dead!)
8. Mao Zedong

Who touched my blog?

Who?

Originally, the title for the previous entry was just FUNNY. But suddenly after my short nap (no I didn't dream of steve again or any aother lecturer), the title was changed to FUNNY MOMENTS ...

I was completley oh my godness god damit shocked! Who added the MOMENTS? Who? Btw, I do not sleepwalk, or sleeptype.

The question still lies...WHO?

Funny Moments...

My conversation with my mom juz now. I sat beside my mom and my dad was walking around us taking stuffs here and there.

ME: Just now Cik Minah called ( My aunty, father's side).
MOM: (teliing my dad) Just now your sister called looking for you. She asked you to call her back.
(Notice how my mom exxagerate what I told her)
DAD: She's looking for who?
MOM: (whispering to me) say your father, say your father
ME: MOM. (My aunt is indeed asking for her)
MOM: (whispers louder) FATHER, FATHER
ME: (louder) MOM!!

The Price is Right?

Was watching this game show The Price is Right on Channel 5. A guy got chosen and off he goes to play the game. lol

So, there are 3 prizes to be won in that game. And the host went, *the first prize is, A NEW CAR!! The next prize is, its ANOTHER NEW CAR. The next one is, its ANOTHER NEW CAR*...

Well somehow that tickled me. Another LOL, yet another LOL. LOL

Janji

Pastinya ini, bukan mimpi
Atau illusi, mainan sendiri
Hadirmu, satu realiti
ku masih megah, di pentas ini
penat bodoh

Macam best plak lagu ni ...

Oh Natasha and Xinyi asked me to create a facebook, so i'm goin to create lor...(realating to she-who-should-not-be-named)
Inside joke people.

I dreamt of Steve

Yes I dreamt of Steve this morning. I dreamt that we were playing captain's ball together. WTH thats so random.

Sulinah

I'm dedicating this post specially to my dear friend Sulinah. Thankz for always doing me a favour of recording your voice for my horrendous songs. Really appreciate your time and commitment! Good Job (with the Hancock tone).

Just Another Post

So lets talk about today shall we. School is canceled today and we have the pandemic thingy. For a while there I was obsessed with that word for no reason. And what replaced *school* is our mini Sports Day. Yup our lecturers came up with this so as for us to interact with the year ones. Did we?

So we played sports or games like captain's ball, badminton ...er thats it? I guessed so. I left halfway because my stomach was in pain! This is due the fact that I didn't eat a single thing since morning.

Before the mini sports day, had a voice recording with Sulinah. Because the class room was quite noisy, we went to the opposite room where the window was transparent so you can see from outside. So, normally, if any of our classmates were to enter their classroom, they would spot us because you have to walk past that lane to enter the class. The thing is, most of them were clueless of our existence there as they continued their way the class. Definitely not a big thing but I just want to say something on my first story here. So, Sulinah and I were saying how blind they were. This includes Steve, Logan, and some other people that leave no impact on me, thats why I don't remember them. Funny how Sulinah was overly excited when Mustapha walked past. You should have seen the sudden change in her expression from the *masuk feel expression* to happy (because she was recording a rather sad song)

After the *event*, went back with Sinyee in RINA'S CAR!! Yes! Rina drove us to Hougang! I was so completely oh my goodness god damn it SHOCKED when she suddenly walked to her dad's family car. I was speechless! Ok enough. She dropped us at Hougang and me and Sinyee went to grab a bite before we went our separate ways. Ok that sound so wrong.

Just now, I visited the ria.sg site to hear some of the top 5 of the song-writting competition (NO I wasn't shortlisted). The-song-that-should-not-be-named quickly captured my ear (cheh). It made me feel like composing even more songs. Of course I have alot of imaginations of songs that have drums but Garageband just don't allow me to do that. So, I have to limit my creativity! Ends up most of my songs are rubbish.

Freshly Baked from the Oven

Welcome to my new world of random thoughts. Basically, what you will see will be out of your mind! It will be unbelievable filled with magical thoughts that will spice up your life. Now, do you understand what I have just typed? I don't.

So this is the fouth time I've started a new blog. Reason is, the previous blog is filthy! I don't know I just don't like it, especially with the over-usage of singlish and words like *ayo, ahhhh etc2*. So, I'm starting afresh, freshly baked from the oven (thankz to Rina for that phrase). So please make yourselves at home. If you do have any queries or comment just tag me in the tagboard (which will be put up later). I'm saying this as if tagboard is invented yesterday and no one knows of its existence or how to use it.